Not intentionally, and I’m not sure I did miss it.

I have a daily pill holder thing that has individual containers for the days that come out of the main holder. When I went to take my Monday dose I noticed one of the daily containers by the sink. I may have taken the Sunday dose out, went to get water and left them there, or I may have gotten my water and taken the dose out of the original pill containers. I was refilling the daily dose container at the time and it’s not unusual for me to fill Sunday and leave it rather than leaving it empty.

That’s not something I can just “do better” at.

I do?

I just want you to be aware that Garmin’s stress measures physical stress NOT mental. Having food increases physical stress as your body needs to work to digest, but it can also lower mental stress.

I don’t think this is entirely accurate. It’s a measure of physiological stress. Burnout (as far as I understand it) is the point where the physiological impact of mental stress starts impacting your ability to live a normal life.

I’m not shilling for the brand or anything (which is why I didn’t specify what it was) but from their website:

Stress levels (0–100) are estimated by the Garmin Human Performance Lab engine, primarily using a combination of HR and HRV data. This data is recorded by the optical heart rate sensor on the back of your device.

Divided into sympathetic and parasympathetic branches, your ANS [autonomic nervous system] regulates your physiological systems to best match the expected demands of your current situation. The sympathetic branch dominates when it’s time for action. Your pulse quickens, blood vessels dilate, digestion is interrupted, and adrenaline flows. This is sometimes referred to as the fight-or-flight response. In quieter times, the parasympathetic branch is more dominant, and your body enters what is referred to as rest-and-digest mode. This is when your body can repair itself and replenish resources depleted during more hectic times.

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Stress levels are not measured by your Garmin device during physical activity because the strain of physical activity itself can be considered stressful. The impact of physical activity is best measured and understood in other ways. Public speaking and running up a flight of stairs can both send your heart racing, but the underlying reasons why are fundamentally different.

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You can configure select Garmin devices to alert you when your stress level is unusually high. The alert encourages you to take a moment to relax, and the device will prompt you to begin a guided breathing exercise with the relaxation breathing timer.

Elsewhere:

Food intake, as well as stimulants like caffeine, has no impact on your Body Battery.

Anecdotally, people have shared that alcohol or eating greasy heavy meals or large meals before bed have raised their score. In my examples above I ate more on Monday (lower stress day) than I did on Sunday. I also know I took my stimulant meds in Monday but think I forgot Sunday.

I understand that this is all an approximation and wasn’t even really why I got the watch to begin with. I needed to replace my Fenix and didn’t need all the features so I got a much simpler version that had a HRM. I had previously used a chest strap because I was (unknowingly) being very autistic about triathlon and wanted data to improve my swimming. The stress/body battery/ HRV is interesting to me because the approach my therapist takes is based on polyvagal theory so outside of this I know I am displaying signs of being in flight/freeze way more often than is needed or healthy.

I do box breathing and tapping (as a form of EMDR) when I have panic attacks (rare, but they do happen). The problem I’m trying to deal with is that I can’t tell when my body is in a stress response if it’s not uncontrolled panic.

The gardening when my body was showing stress was very much brain disengagement. No screens, over the ear headphones (off, just to drown out some of the noise), pausing to breathe the fragrant air deeply or appreciate bird song and wind chimes. In contrast, I was doomscrolling when my body was showing signs of rest.

I guess I’m not sure if it being backwards is a symptom of chronic stress or if it’s something I need to adapt to.

I’m at the super annoying “something ain’t quite right but it’s easily brushed off until someone decides you are being two faced as an act of cruelty towards them” part of the spectrum.

That response rules, I’m def going to use it in the future 🫡

Lol they take it as degree of disability rather than spectrum of differences because they can’t comprehend that anything other than the NT way of being exists.

I have an appointment in 4 hours (virtual, thankfully) and I want to do some gardening 😭

Thoughts and prayers (genuinely)

I’m not sure it’s more anonymous? If you are driving it you need plates, and there are way more cameras than Flock.

If you buy land then it’s in your name or a company name but that’s not anon. I guess it depends on where the plot of land is but depending on the zoning it may arouse suspicion if nothing is built or it’s left idle. I do live rural and Google maps has really made it hard to hide zoning infractions lol. Tree cover might help.

Would you need utilities? That would need a name too, and they could tell when you are there based on usage.

It doesn’t sound like this would work for you but I’d say the best way to be anon would be to be an informal roommate, or even having a rental lease especially in a place where that’s not public info and is just an agreement between two people.

Lol yes. When someone startles me by being somewhere unexpected I notice them, I go back to what I was doing and then yelp/jump/etc when my brain catches up. It’s awkward as fuck.

I agree that you should not send these. Unfortunately, sending these after someone has told you that they do not want further communication with you will likely be seen as doing the behavior this person has expressed makes them uncomfortable.

Sometimes, writing letters and not sending them can be helpful, because it helps us organize our thoughts.

I think if you have to say something, for closure, I would suggest telling her you are sorry and that you will respect her wishes. Maybe things change in the future, but these explanations you are writing aren’t the way. Sorry 😔

Omg is that Wolverine on the right??? It makes me do my happy nerd dance when I see exhibits highlight the influence historical movements have had on modern things 🤩

Happy anniversary to you and your kidney ✨

Thank you!

A vent: It drives me absolutely bat shit raging mad when someone asks me a question they know I have to search for the answer to (like, pull up my phone and google). Why are you demanding this labour from me??? Even worse when they just walk up to me and ask, like we weren’t already talking about something. So they distracted me from my current task to demand I do something they could just as easily do.

My mom is coming to visit in a few weeks and she does this all the time. I can’t wait to randomly burst out crying when she does it that will be fun.

If you are willing, I’d like to know more about what a recovery coach does. Any links would be appreciated!

Proud of you!

What a strange logic. Are they saying no one is going to believe that they are genuine because they are in fact not genuine?

I went to university in the early 2000s when “ironic” edgelord posting was pretty popular. It became clear pretty quickly that this was a recruiting tactic to the far right. I try not to be too judgey about people who don’t understand this because I didn’t understand it back then either. I should have known better but didn’t, and I am ashamed. I thought the jokes were so absurd it was clear they were meant to be poking fun at the far right but they were often sincere 😭

Because it was a mistake (out of ignorance) I would have jumped at the opportunity to apologize if someone called me out. In fact, it wasn’t until I was called out that I was like, “Wait, we aren’t all in on this joke? This hurts people’s feelings and makes them feel unsafe? I don’t like that!”. Since then I have become more aware of what signals I give to others based on my participation/association/or even not speaking out on problematic things. I can’t imagine a situation where an apology would have been the wrong thing to do. Sure, it could result in people telling me they don’t forgive me instead of just ignoring me and that hurts but it doesn’t hurt as much as enduring Nazi shit.

Yeah I don’t want to be like this thanks