I’ve always made up a person to fit in. Masking has taken a toll and I hate the person I’ve pretended to be. That person is boring, polished, and an over achiever. Since.I was punished severely on a daily basis at 4 years old and afterwards, my true self never was known to me. Only my self who could survive.
Where do we find our unmasked real self after reaching “the big one” burnout? When your braim stops working, you’re no longer functional, and the person you made can no longer be sustained, what do you do?
I’m in my 40s and it’s rough.
Well, I just got diagnosed with ADHD and instantly got Concerta. So I guess I’m one of you after all?
Oh and I burned out at around 28 I guess. Stopped keeping up with my riggid, cruel job.
So my real self is just less efficient, pisses people off constantly, and is utterly alien to everything I built to do.
Put in that 60% and clock out. That is all they are paying you for.
Yeah, I stopped trying, I know it won’t earn me more money. I just do a decent job, no slacking, no rushing. I don’t run around anymore, got yelled for it anyway.